The Struggle is real.

The Struggle is real 

ever since the new year 2018 started I told myself that I would fix my life and get my life going back on pace, however, it just seems to get harder and harder with more time passing. I have spread myself so thin online trying to make it all still work and it just hurts so much that it isn't where I want it to be. Regardless I know one day all this is going to just click and everything for once in my life will be okay. My damn Grand National is sitting out in the driveway right now and it's so frustrating that I don't even have enough money to fix it. Earlier this month I made a dermatologist appointment for myself and since I don't have any insurance it was gonna cost me $125 cash, I considered not even going to that appointment to save the money to fix my car, however, I went to the Doctor today and he wants to see me back in 6 months. For those that don't know I was diagnosed with melanoma in 2013 so it's important for me to keep on this.

It becomes really frustrating when you have to consider cutting things like that out so you can save money and I hope it's not a position that you are ever put in. I've even gone as far as to cut back all sugar drinks such as sodas which actually ends up being a good thing I dropped 10lbs and saved some money. for real tho it's not about money to me it's about success and security I could care less about the money itself if that makes sense. One day when I have all the money in the world I will do so many good things that this crappy world just isn't doing for itself, I really do think I can make a big difference. It works the same way for all the social media accounts I just need to get in front of enough people. Remember guys the world is a numbers game if you can conquer the numbers game you will be very successful. I don't buy things for fun I buy things always thinking in the back of my head "how is this gonna help me further myself" it's just a matter of time 

Working so Hard

Working So Hard 

I've worked so hard in life like I'm sure a lot of people in this world have, however, there was always this sense that I was putting in so much more effort than most people and I just couldn't figure out why. Remembering being in school, god I hate school it just never seemed to work for me. Either I was so smart that I didn't have to study whatsoever and the teacher hated me and harassed me, or I struggled with the class and had to work twice as hard as anyone else. Currently, I feel the same way about Youtube currently my Channel is sitting at 22,873 Subscribers and there isn't much I can do to fix it every time I upload a video I just lose subscribers and it basically, in short, does not allow me to build a channel. I'm almost certain there is something internal wrong with it. The Gaming channel I started on Jan 1st, 2018 actually is starting to do really well for what it is the important thing to me is in creating constant interaction from a lot of new viewers as well as some old.

Yeah, life has a way of doing that ya know? some people just get everything handed to them while the people that work so hard never seem to get anything they deserve. Hopefully one day all my hard work will pay off because I could use all the progress I can get. Believe me, I don't mind working hard I actually enjoy it but if there isn't results coming from my work then I start to get really frustrated and just wish the world would end. Somehow someway everything seems to have a funny way of working out on its on I sure hope that will be the case for me. My only fear in life is to die never becoming anything I need to accomplish everything I set out to do otherwise I look at it as if I wasted my time. There is a special feeling to when you work hard for something, it really makes you feel as if you earned it. On the other hand I feel like I earned it a long time ago but until then I will try to make myself successful in other ways aside from Youtube because if there was anything I learned on my rise to fame it's never put all your eggs into one basket because if something happens you are in big trouble.

Welcome To the Blog

Welcome to the Blog

My name is Tony Tornado I started Youtube on Jan 22nd, 2016 with a goal that I would obtain 1 million views in the first year. Surpassing that with flying colors I was able to get 5 million views in the first year and over 10,000 Subscribers in just the first 6 months of being on Youtube. Now many would ask how did I get from nothing to where I am today, pure dedication I refused to let anyone tell me that I couldn't do something but it takes a whole lot more then dedication you have to have all the right resources at your disposal, and if you are missing just one of those things the whole world you built for yourself could come crashing down. I am Tony Tornado and this is my story.www.youtube.com/tonytornado