Working so Hard

Working So Hard 

I've worked so hard in life like I'm sure a lot of people in this world have, however, there was always this sense that I was putting in so much more effort than most people and I just couldn't figure out why. Remembering being in school, god I hate school it just never seemed to work for me. Either I was so smart that I didn't have to study whatsoever and the teacher hated me and harassed me, or I struggled with the class and had to work twice as hard as anyone else. Currently, I feel the same way about Youtube currently my Channel is sitting at 22,873 Subscribers and there isn't much I can do to fix it every time I upload a video I just lose subscribers and it basically, in short, does not allow me to build a channel. I'm almost certain there is something internal wrong with it. The Gaming channel I started on Jan 1st, 2018 actually is starting to do really well for what it is the important thing to me is in creating constant interaction from a lot of new viewers as well as some old.

Yeah, life has a way of doing that ya know? some people just get everything handed to them while the people that work so hard never seem to get anything they deserve. Hopefully one day all my hard work will pay off because I could use all the progress I can get. Believe me, I don't mind working hard I actually enjoy it but if there isn't results coming from my work then I start to get really frustrated and just wish the world would end. Somehow someway everything seems to have a funny way of working out on its on I sure hope that will be the case for me. My only fear in life is to die never becoming anything I need to accomplish everything I set out to do otherwise I look at it as if I wasted my time. There is a special feeling to when you work hard for something, it really makes you feel as if you earned it. On the other hand I feel like I earned it a long time ago but until then I will try to make myself successful in other ways aside from Youtube because if there was anything I learned on my rise to fame it's never put all your eggs into one basket because if something happens you are in big trouble.